It’s been a while since I met this very substantial guy who gradually changed my perspectives in life, and he doesn’t know it. The first time I saw him was an exceptional day for me. Randomly, I was so happy and I couldn’t get the smile off my face. It was one sunny afternoon and I was having a walk in the cloud going back to my dorm. I logged my time-in in the guard house and over a stranger I turned a brilliant visage on him(with the lightest smile). Months after months, I happened to know the stranger more and I started discovering a lot of possibilities for the things which I thought are unreachable before him. I thought, I found the right guy, the one who’s ideal not just for me but in everything.
Unintentionally,my emotions slipped and I was bruised but I’m fine because I was able to recover from the bad fall.
So, after the light injury I had, I came up with one thought: Love might not be enough.
and I thought, maybe I have to be the right one first.
For me, he’s ideal and as time goes by, I’ve learn to value him. The character he possess is even more impressive than I thought but no matter how good it makes him, still the one kind of emotion is not enough. When I was younger, I used to think that all kinds of problems in the world can be answered only by the four-lettered word, yet now I guess I was wrong. Sometimes, only three letters can fit my solution kit and this solution never fails me though I failed the cure many times but his one is extremely powerful.
Like a usual child, I kept asking the Highness for the perfect one, the right one and the good one, yet I never did ask myself, “Am I the right one?”. So I came to take an act of setting apart for something more worth the distance. I want to be as good as I can be hoping that one day, I’ll be good enough for the person I look up to. Sometimes, out of nowhere, he sinks into the ocean of my mind and I’ll start writing a letter for him.
"I can’t get so close to you even if I wanted to. I never got the strength to be the kind of girl I wanna be when you’re around. I always look upon you every time a guy tries to walk with me yet in the middle of the road, I always find myself walking alone and longing that someday, I’ll end up walking with someone like you or better
be you. I am weakened by your presence and I’m stuck in my seat when you’re beside me. I don’t wanna go home without you but if you tell me I have, to I’ll do it for you.”
Such random words suddenly flies all over the place then I’ll see myself again reflected on the window shield of the car dreaming far of a dream that doesn’t give me the assurance of a sweet fruit of perspiration.
"It only takes him one smile and it’s enough for me to breathe, one touch and I can live, only one hug and he’ll keep me still, but one kiss would kill."
I’m like a clock that keeps on running yet he has stunned my time. Now I lost my track but hoping he’ll bring me back.